Waiting
Good morning!
The past few weeks I have been going through many emotions, from happiness to sorrow, pain to relief. As I was thing of my current circumstances I got to thinking about my life now and my perceptions a few years ago. How I went from not caring to waiting on God and saying Jesus come quickly!
A few years ago. Let me just by saying, I grew up in the church and that still did not help me to understand these feelings... A few years ago I was in a place in my life where I felt as though I knew what life was about, I thought I knew what it meant to have a happy life and to enjoy every minute of it. I did not understand all the talk about the need and desire for Jesus to come back in the near and immediate future. I thought, "this place is pretty good, why do you want to leave it so badly?". Though people would explain their reasons I still felt that it wasn't that important to leave this world. But boy am I glad He didn't and I received the chance to see the truth in clarity, to change my ways! You see, when I thought I knew everything I was living in sin, I did not continue to strive for the Word of God (in fact I'm not even sure I believed it), I entertained many of sinful desires which lead me to cut my church time short and start avoiding spending time with those I knew could see through me and would rebuke me. Living this way put me in situations that I wish I NEVER had to experience and I don't wish upon anyone! I wish I realized then, what I do now! I wish I never entertained those sinful thoughts, I wish I wouldn't have drank those alcoholic drinks, I wish I would have stayed away that one night that would cause me more pain then I ever knew possible.
Now I sit down and think and pray, Jesus please come! As I wait, I sit and look at the world now, and I see false teaching in churches, I see school shootings, terrorists, pedophiles in schools, places that were once safe have been infiltrated by the Devil, I see pain all around. And as I sit at home the past few weeks sick and hardly able to care for myself, yet alone my family, I can't help but think JESUS COME QUICKLY!
My husband and I have walked through many hard things as a family, starting before we got married... A few months before we got married we were told by the church we were attending that we were no longer welcome, our best friends and roommates turned and stabbed us in the back and my now brother-in-law decided he did not want to be a part of this family and left in a harsh way, hurting many people. When we were going through this not once did we question if we were doing the right thing, we were continually praying and believed and still do, that this was God's will for us. We continue to have unanswered health problems, and I occasionally still struggle pain from my past life. But when all is said and done, we know that it is in God's hands it's His will be done. We know God will take care of us and we can do is pray, wait and surrender to Him.
JESUS PLEASE COME QUICKLY!
The past few weeks I have been going through many emotions, from happiness to sorrow, pain to relief. As I was thing of my current circumstances I got to thinking about my life now and my perceptions a few years ago. How I went from not caring to waiting on God and saying Jesus come quickly!
A few years ago. Let me just by saying, I grew up in the church and that still did not help me to understand these feelings... A few years ago I was in a place in my life where I felt as though I knew what life was about, I thought I knew what it meant to have a happy life and to enjoy every minute of it. I did not understand all the talk about the need and desire for Jesus to come back in the near and immediate future. I thought, "this place is pretty good, why do you want to leave it so badly?". Though people would explain their reasons I still felt that it wasn't that important to leave this world. But boy am I glad He didn't and I received the chance to see the truth in clarity, to change my ways! You see, when I thought I knew everything I was living in sin, I did not continue to strive for the Word of God (in fact I'm not even sure I believed it), I entertained many of sinful desires which lead me to cut my church time short and start avoiding spending time with those I knew could see through me and would rebuke me. Living this way put me in situations that I wish I NEVER had to experience and I don't wish upon anyone! I wish I realized then, what I do now! I wish I never entertained those sinful thoughts, I wish I wouldn't have drank those alcoholic drinks, I wish I would have stayed away that one night that would cause me more pain then I ever knew possible.
Now I sit down and think and pray, Jesus please come! As I wait, I sit and look at the world now, and I see false teaching in churches, I see school shootings, terrorists, pedophiles in schools, places that were once safe have been infiltrated by the Devil, I see pain all around. And as I sit at home the past few weeks sick and hardly able to care for myself, yet alone my family, I can't help but think JESUS COME QUICKLY!
My husband and I have walked through many hard things as a family, starting before we got married... A few months before we got married we were told by the church we were attending that we were no longer welcome, our best friends and roommates turned and stabbed us in the back and my now brother-in-law decided he did not want to be a part of this family and left in a harsh way, hurting many people. When we were going through this not once did we question if we were doing the right thing, we were continually praying and believed and still do, that this was God's will for us. We continue to have unanswered health problems, and I occasionally still struggle pain from my past life. But when all is said and done, we know that it is in God's hands it's His will be done. We know God will take care of us and we can do is pray, wait and surrender to Him.
JESUS PLEASE COME QUICKLY!
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